Urgh!
I am so TIRED. I have been so tired that my eyelids are actually drooping and closing of their own accord.
I believe that perhaps a little natural drowsiness from my body's response to the LDN is being compounded by the sleep issues. Last night I was unable to get to sleep until maybe 2.30-3.00 a.m. and I awoke at 7 to take Nature-Throid, then went back to sleep and was awoken properly at 9.10 a.m.
The night before was DELICIOUS... because I slept so well for a nice 6 hour chunk. I really hope that with time I will be getting more chunky sleep nights and less insomnia/fitful ones.
In good news, I still feel way better in the mental health area...
I feel LESS ANXIOUS! Yay! This is pretty amazing, as since AI thyroid issues, I have really struggled with bouts of anxiety that seem to be linked to some kind of cortisol/adrenaline misfiring. I also still feel less apathetic and yesterday/today I actually experienced:
JOY and OPTIMISM...
I was reading the Quarter Life Crisis forum yesterday, and instead of it triggering me, I felt quite calm. I felt there was some hope for me and my life.
Showing posts with label Sleep. Show all posts
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Thursday, 20 December 2012
Thursday, 13 December 2012
50/50
Yesterday was a 50/50 kind of day...
50% good and 50% bad.
I am still suffering from very disturbed sleep. I randomly get to sleep - there is no regular time, and then I wake up, sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up...
Yesterday I had to wake up early and get myself out of the house, as this academic year I had challenged myself to attend a class. I thought: at least one class out of the house, activating the brain and meeting people; attending a class will do me good. It's been tough, and I do think has impacted me - set me back ability wise, but having had these health problems for most of my life, I sometimes feel that I just have to 'do' something, even if it comes at more than just a financial cost to myself.
The good - hopefully LDN related - news is that I felt cognitively more functional. I felt a lot more alert than normal. I felt slightly more energetic especially considering that I had had poor sleep.
In my typical hopeful fashion, I started to think I had turned some corner after my dose increased. Yet, by 2pm, I was LDN sick again - with a bad, bad headache and terrible nausea. It was so bad, I could not do a thing and had to spend all afternoon and evening in bed. I also developed a runny nose. Feeling so unwell and so incapable, I just went back to feeling desperate and miserable.
So last night, I decided to take a 'drowsy' allergy pill. Usually that would make me have a fairly good night of sleep, once I actually fell asleep. Not last night, which was another night of disturbed sleep. Somehow LDN overrode the tablet!
Today I woke up feeling not too bad - quite exhausted, but not crazily fatigued to the point of bed or chair bound. I decided that if today is headache and nausea free, I will be very happy. To have a good day without those side effects would keep my spirits up! I managed to go for a walk... And although that did make me feel unwell in retrospect, the fact I even managed to do it in such cold weather, was a miracle really. I keep on hoping.
50% good and 50% bad.
I am still suffering from very disturbed sleep. I randomly get to sleep - there is no regular time, and then I wake up, sleep, wake up, sleep, wake up...
Yesterday I had to wake up early and get myself out of the house, as this academic year I had challenged myself to attend a class. I thought: at least one class out of the house, activating the brain and meeting people; attending a class will do me good. It's been tough, and I do think has impacted me - set me back ability wise, but having had these health problems for most of my life, I sometimes feel that I just have to 'do' something, even if it comes at more than just a financial cost to myself.
The good - hopefully LDN related - news is that I felt cognitively more functional. I felt a lot more alert than normal. I felt slightly more energetic especially considering that I had had poor sleep.
In my typical hopeful fashion, I started to think I had turned some corner after my dose increased. Yet, by 2pm, I was LDN sick again - with a bad, bad headache and terrible nausea. It was so bad, I could not do a thing and had to spend all afternoon and evening in bed. I also developed a runny nose. Feeling so unwell and so incapable, I just went back to feeling desperate and miserable.
So last night, I decided to take a 'drowsy' allergy pill. Usually that would make me have a fairly good night of sleep, once I actually fell asleep. Not last night, which was another night of disturbed sleep. Somehow LDN overrode the tablet!
Today I woke up feeling not too bad - quite exhausted, but not crazily fatigued to the point of bed or chair bound. I decided that if today is headache and nausea free, I will be very happy. To have a good day without those side effects would keep my spirits up! I managed to go for a walk... And although that did make me feel unwell in retrospect, the fact I even managed to do it in such cold weather, was a miracle really. I keep on hoping.
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